Yesterday i should be there ; yet i couldn't be . Bought Acer laptop at sim lim , feeling so weird because i always go to sim lim with you. Though I should be happy that I bought a laptop , yet I simply don't know why i'm not happy at all .. Saw your photos , i'm not in there .. I couldn't really tell you how i felt all that . I know every now and then i would view your friendster profile , because i miss you badly. How i wish you give me back that pieces that is missing from my heart.
Went to my cousin house and after that went to zouk. Drank about 5-6 glasses and I'm not totally drunk yet just that i'm feeling sick. So i went back to von's house around 3 plus and puked. The feeling sucks and my body has a strong reek of alcohol. How i wish this 2 years will pass quickly so that i didn't have to see ivan again. He was right , he knew that once I leave this school , most likely i won't contact him anymore. Sometimes i wanted to tell him directly, just leave me alone will you ? Please get out of my life ! I'm tired of seeing him everyday, someone i wanted to see i didn't and someone i didn't wanna see faces me everyday. Grandma, pls help me will you ? ):

ps : I still love you ...